Okay so this stuff has been on my mind for a while now...
I saw this on Vid's blog yesterdae, and to be honest it made me feel a bit sad:
As Cele so rightly said in the comments- Vid is no me and I'm no Vid either, and it should be obvious that no one is better than the other.
I don't know if it's just harder to see from where I am, but I don't get this fame thing. Yes I may be well-known in the Sims community, but I'm probably a very normal person so I find it hard to comprehend where this idolisation comes from.
I'm not discounting the admiration- I still appreciate every single person who takes time out to comment on my blogs- but it's just a bit weird for me when I know people think of me in this way... but there is something worse.
Maybe I should make this nice and clear.
I don't sit around all day thinking I'm the best thing since Tunnocks Teacakes. Back in the day I used to write my stories and not that many people read them, and that was okay- I loved writing my legacy and that's why I did it.
When I started this blog I only had a few objectives:
- To organise all my shit.
- To have a place where I could talk freely about whatever I wanted without fear of being reprimanded.
- To create a space where I could chat to my pals from the TS3 site.
- To perhaps hopefully one day get a mention or a link on the Mares.
That was it. I wasn't seeking Sim-world notoriety, and the fact that people think I've achieved this is of little consequence to me.
Is it nice to have people acknowledge and respect me? Yes.
Does it make a damn bit of difference in my everyday life? No.
I'm sure if I left the Sims community the mourning party would be brief- you'd go on without me, and it wouldn't matter that I was absent. I know this.
This should be clear to everyone in fact, but instead I feel like I'm having to defend myself all the time. Some people out there seem to think I do think I'm the best thing since Tunnocks Teacakes, and are fond of saying so. Never to my face though, oh no.
It's always the same- 'Fury never talks to me, Fury only talks to people who are popular.'
If I don't talk to you maybe that's because I'm busy, or I don't have anything to say, or you're just annoying. And if I were only giving my time to people who are 'popular' then I'd probably be off bumhugging Ruby all the time. I chat to people because we have things in common or because they make me laugh- I don't seek out all the cool kids of the community, and if you think my Simmie pals are all that then it's just nice for them I guess.
I try to answer everyone who asks me something or leaves me a comment, but I'm not Superman (despite Super FuryRed). And besides, if you spam my blog it's going only to make me even less likely to comply.
But of course the real issue I have with this whole thing is that all these 'problems' people have with me clearly can't be that bloody important, because they never tell me directly.
And this is the downside of this so-called fame. One minute people are nice as pie to my virtual face, but behind the scenes they can't wait to have a poke.
I wouldn't be anything without my 'fans' right?
Well actually yes I would- I'd still be me. I'd still have my family, my friends, my health.
Whether you like me or whether you don't I'm still the same person, and I'm not about to change any time soon.
So if you want to hate me just because people know my username, go ahead. Do me a favour though- if you go down that route then spare me the bullshit. Don't bitch about me to your little friends then come back over here and praise me. I'd rather have your hatred than your fakery, and even then I'd just throw it away.
At the end of the day if everyone suddenly decided to stop following my blog I'm sure I would survive, so if you really do think that little of me then go ahead- piss off already.
Sims may be fun, but a game is just a game.
I know what's important, I just wish you did too.